“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”- Anonymous
What is a sound, it is merely a sound that enters your ear triggers your ear drum and then the brain changes them to words. What is a sound, and what makes it so important? Without sounds you are alone, in your own head at all times, an eerie silence is always present, you can suspect nothing, assume nothing. Sound no longer present in my world...how strange.
I know sound is not present because the doctor writes to me...he tells me that I caught scarlet fever a very rare disease to get now...and they caught it too late. He tells me Helen Keller suffered the same disease,but I am lucky, for I can still see. I dont think I'm lucky. What's there to see, to see others laugh and not hear their laughter to hear others talk and to not know about what. No I was not lucky.
My mother would sit in my room, her head in her hands. She writes to me too. She writes about how I will be able to leave the hospital in a few days. I try to speak...but as I do my mother clamps her hands over her ears. She waves her hand telling me to stop, she writes quickly on a pad she was given... "too loud".
I sigh...she looks down sad and sorry, I guess my sigh was too loud as well.
I'm deaf. That's all there is to it. I was left alone with my own thoughts and that is all.